Our Home

Things are pretty much done here at the Brown home. I have most things in place, & most of the cleaning is done. However I did find out today that Direct TV will not work here because we have huge trees in our backyard which equals no signal. AND we are not allowed anymore to put the dish in the front yard, post life. So YAH for that, I know my husband will love dealing with that when he returns. But for now I`m just watching NCIS online.....they make me laugh out loud all by myself, I love that show.

Here are a few photos of our home......

The Kitchen

View of Den & Dinning Room

The Foyer

Nothing too special but I think it looks very homey....if that is a word. Upstairs is quite bare. One room is our bedroom, one room is my closet & one room is my sewing/storage room/guest bedroom (when they come). Having the dogs live with us is a little different. I have to sweep everyday cause, if you look at the photo above that white little fellow on the rug sheads bad. Other then that things are good!

25.....

As I posted earlier this past Monday was my 25th birthday. Matthew & I were talking about how I wanted to spend my birthday money. You want to know what I want to buy.....

An electric skillet & a hand held vacuum! What happened to my coolness & fun! And I think I just heard my biological clock tick! AHHHHH! I feel like 25 snuck up on me, but I still feel 16 years old!

Another thing I have observed is weekends are not as fun 1. When you are by yourself and 2. When you don`t work. Friday & Saturday seem so much more FUN when you have been working. When you sit at home all day, it is just another day.

KENTUCKY!

A lot has happened since my last post. I`m now FINALLY in Kentucky. I miss home & everyone BUT I`m so close to Matthew being here I can taste it : P

We left last Friday, the 9th. Stopped in Alabama for my mother's 40th college reunion. She went to Judson, which is an all girls college. My Father went to Marion Military, which back then was an all boy college. And so they met & fell in love. This is where they got engaged at, on Judson's campus.

It was the most beautiful campus I have ever been to. This was an Antebellum house that was across the street from the school. I could sit there all day & just look at it. What I wouldn`t give to fix that thing up! My vacation home can be in Marion, AL haha.

                                     

This was a HUGE magnolia tree that was on campus. I just LOVE the South! Too bad I couldn`t replant it in my little townhouse backyard!

So on Sunday we made it to my house. Then Monday was my 25th Birthday. Yeah it felt like any other day. I know from here to when we have children, birthdays are going to be boring. Anyways my parents took me to a restaurant/Primitive store called Back Home. My mom surprised me, but actually I had told Matt the whole time we were here last time I wanted to go there. It had some good food & great finds!

So we worked like crazy getting everything out of storage & to my house. My parents left Thursday and all the downstairs was done. Now the upstairs is a different story, my clothes, his clothes, my clothes, the sewing room, my clothes haha. I take up every closet & space pretty much, poor Matt. But I`m settled in for the most part. Oh, the dogs & cat! They all made it, Allie & Bama (dogs) & Kitty (well you know what she is!) have been great! I knew Kitty would be fine. But my ranch dogs have turned into house dogs very easily, actually too easily. All they do is sleep, sleep, sleep! So now I`m just waiting on the day for him to return. Cleaning, organizing & working out. I can`t believe it is finally almost over!

Blah.........

That is how I feel right now. I feel like I'm a zombie, just walking around looking for a brain to eat (gross sorry). I guess I'm in a rut with life. I'm just so ready to go, but I don't want to leave, it is a strange feeling. Don't get me wrong, I want to live with my husband. I CANT WAIT FOR THAT! Waking up to him laying in bed with me....I have waited a year for that! But last time I was there for only 4 months & it felt like a year. Now I'm going for a year and it will feel like being away from L Dubb forever! My whole family is here. The worst  is when you call home and everyone is over at Mommy & Daddy's (yes we are grown women who call our parents that) & they are all laughing in the background. Ugh. But I want to leave BAD, so that is where I get stuck. I would give ANYTHING to be with my husband again. It isn't like I don't want to go. A quote from Little Women (I love that movie) I feel fits my attitude, "I love our home, but I'm just so fitful and I can't stand being here!" Jo March. That is exactly how I feel. I love my home but I can't stand being here. I want my husband & a normal life.

I was going to write this blog all about me being torn & BLAH feeling. But while I was typing something came to mind, well someone......Jesus. This past 2 weeks since I have been home I feel like I have strayed away from God. I didn't mean to, I just have been wrapped in my, "Oh poor me" that I haven't been as focused as I was. Jesus praying in the garden came to mind (fitting with being Easter too)

Going a little ahead, he fell on his face, praying, "My Father, if there is any way, get me out of this. But please, not what I want. You, what do you want?" Matthew 26:39
He then left them a second time. Again he prayed, "My Father, if there is no other way than this, drinking this cup to the dregs, I'm ready. Do it your way." Matthew 26:42

Now Jesus dieing for our sins & me moving......not a good comparison, they are NO WHERE NEAR CLOSE....at all! BUT it just makes me think, Jesus knew what he had to do. He was scared but he knew it was what has to be done. And he did it, & I'm so thankful for that! So me being sad about leaving my hometown is NOTHING compared to this. Just makes you feel like nothing & selfish. But that man who died for me cares so much about me and even my selfish ways.

The House....

We got a house!! After many phone calls (from Lake Wales & Afghanistan) to housing we finally got something. AND I didn’t have to move. We were not suppose to get a house until mid April but the people who were a head of us on the list cancelled. I had to fly up Wednesday, sign on Thursday & I flew back down Friday. Thank goodness for my one friend up there, Katie! She picked me up, let me stay with them, drove me around & dropped me off.

The house is the same house we had before (2 story townhouse, 3 bedrooms/1 & half bath). BUT the lay out is flipped. So the house is totally opposite, that is kind of weird. My parents & I are driving up the weekend of the 9th & 10th of April. I should be in Fort Knox on my 25th birthday, at least my parents will be there with me. So I have 3 full weeks & 2 weekends left in good ole' L Dubb. But I’m so ready to go now. I’ll miss home but I’m going to be living with my husband in no time & I CAN'T WAIT!!!!

My New Obsession

Gees yall.....it has taken me forever to post this month for some reason! So finally I`m posting about my machine & all. This is my new love......it is a Brother Innov-is 1000. You really don`t have to do anything but just push buttons. No really....I don`t have to do anything haha. It took me a while to actually use it. I was just so scared I would break it. Finally I did & a made the apron I posted about earlier.

 

I got all the supplies at Wal-Mart, yes even the farbic. It is nice & heavy too. I can`t wait to cook in it once I get to Kentucky. I did have a few mess ups BUT I did not ask my mother for help. I wanted to do it all on my own. She won`t be there in Kentucky every time I mess up so I have to learn on my own.

Now on to the even better part......Monogramming! I love it, I get a little stressed because I`m still learning but I could monogram all day. When my husband gets back, I`ll most likely have every & any thing I can monogram in our house done!

This is my first item I did.....it is a Vera Bradley beach towel

This is the second item, another VB beach towel

I did not make the bloomers (maybe one day). I bought them at a local childern's boutique in our town. These are for my niece, Miss Finley

She was kind enough to model them for us : )

On other topics:

 I got a new devoation book. The name is Simple Compassion. I`m only into week 1 but I really like it. The whole theme is getting back to being like Jesus. Jesus was all about those who we would consider "below us". And we should be just like that.

My car is still not fixed....ugh.....AND I might be leaving for Kentucky WAY earlier then I thought. More like this weekend! AHHHH!!! Not to sure yet the date but I`m moving with in the next two weeks. I so want to be there because housing has been POOP & I want that to be all done with. And I want to get my house ready. But I hate leaving here....it's home but I`m taking one step closer to Matthew being home! I`m sad & excited all in one! So please pray for me this week....I need it big time!

Crappy Day.......

Any desperate day
One word I can pray
All I know to say - Jesus
Screaming from my soul
I’m giving up control
The only hope I know - Jesus

All my concerns my deepest hurt
My Savior’s been where I am
Life comes undone and there’s no one
Who understands like He can

So even if I stumble and my world is torn apart
There is One who’s holding my heart - Cadia

I heard this song at the end of a not so great day & it made me smile. Housing on the base we are stationed at called today & said I will be in temporary housing for 4 - 5 weeks before something permanent opens up....ugh. It kind of is fine because my Mom & I are going up this weekend to take a load and get the temp house. Then I`m going back up in 5 weeks....so it does work out. But I wanted something permanent so bad!

THEN while I was driving out to the ranch to pack up all the stuff I bought while I have been home.....I got in a wreck : ( It was my fault too. Thank goodness it was a family friend AND her car was totally fine. MINE not so much. The bumper is jacked up and I have to get it fixed. So that is 2 wrecks like with in a month.

I know life happens, but today I was just in a BLAH mood all day. At the end of a day like this I would LOVE to have a big ole glass of wine....but it is my Lent "give up". So I started thinking, "Maybe I`m being tested?" Then I heard that song & I was like JESUS!!! haha So what I got in a wreck. So what I didn`t get what I wanted for housing. My husband is at war in a foreign country, that little girl is dieing of cancer, there is so much worse things in life. But it is all "okay" if you just pray JESUS : )

P.S. my apron is DONE! I`ll post it tomorrow....I know yall are dieing to see it ; )